My life

One of the resions why I have done this blog is because I am not doing anything with my life, No job nO real activities and NOthing that I can remember as something significant. In other words, Im a typical teenage boy outta high school and too "lazy" or lost to go to college.

so I really wanna see what I can do with this blog and you're suggestions. I want to see if I could find my hidden place with the help of you people who look at blogs like mine, if you could suggest somewhere or something and I will try to do it. and to be fair and honest and also to tell a story I wanna tell you about me.

When I was born my biological mother could not take care of me, she has bipolar disorder that makes living a normal life almost impossible. I was the first of five children. so after I was born on Capital Hill district Seattle Washington on may 14th 1991 there is little suprise to say that I was adopted.

These people who adopted me which are now my parents do everything that they can to raise me and my sister who is my half sister who was born about 2 to 3 years later in Pheonix AZ. and I love them, so Im living with them and my life is better then I would have had with my reall biological mother. but I alwase think about my mother, heard she lives in Portland OR. and she does not wish to see me kuz she thinks that I hate her which i dont at all. and someday I will see her, sometime after I find my hidden place, maby she is my hidden place, my hidden life that no one but me and her will know, the last time i saw her was when I was five and I sometimes dream when I look up at the stars that I will see her and when I do I will be happy no matter what happens.

Start!

In my life I look for something that people miss, that seems not to be there to most but if you hide there then you can enjoy the time going past, being hidden, alone, but most importantly being right where you wanna be!

Today I notice that we get all wrapped up in our lives and in our own little space that everyone knows and where everyone may be able to access you by phone, e-mail, etc. I think that it is very important to have places and do things that leaves every one of those things in the dust for at least a couple of hours, somewhere where that no one knows really where you are and they arent able to reach you. Children have such a place, its called their hideout or hideaway and somewhere down the road into adulthood most loose it.

I have lost it.

today, I alwase have my phone on me that hooks up wirelessly to the internet for my e-mail, facebook, AIM and every single thing that I need so that eveyone can call me txt me email me and find me, I also go to the local curling club.

My routine usually consists of: trying to find a job but failing to, doing nothing around the house, drinking coffee at my house, doing some odd job that may at the most take a day.

I am board with it, I need to find a hidden place! so here it starts!

hopfully people who follow my blog will start to try and do the same or be able to just tlk to me and tell me of ideas that I may like :)